I feel like 19 is such a awkward age...you are no longer 18, but you aren't quite 21 yet. You are no longer a child, but you aren't quite an adult yet. It's scary and strange but exciting and exhilarating at the same time. As I reflect on this past year I am filled with all sorts of emotions about what is in store for me in the future, because one thing this year taught me is that the future is closer than it seems.
This year I learned many things about myself. I went to college, a place that causes you to think and test your limits...a lot. Before I used to love being alone, or so I thought. Although I still need my space, I find myself wanting to be surrounded by people all the time, even if it's in pure silence. I don't know if this is because it distracts me from missing my loved ones at home or because I am becoming more needy as I get older (I am sure its a bit of both haha).
I became friends with people I thought I would never be friends with, and distanced myself from people I thought would be in my life for a very long time.
I had a lot of hangovers...
And a lot of fun nights filled with dancing and laughs!
I learned that I can't be obsessed with planning every bit of my life, because it doesn't always go the way we plan. (And sometimes the detour is even better)
I learned that I can't be good at everything and that's more than okay. For this reason, I learned to nourish and enjoy the things I am good at (like reading, writing, and making people laugh).
I take things day by day, or at least try to!
I learned to say what I feel, always (the good and the bad).
18 was a year of realizations and I hope 19 continues to be...
I realized I am very good at telling people's intentions, which led me to realize I should always trust my instinct.
I realized I am a neat freak. Cleaning has actually become a way to relieve my stress. Everything needs to be in its place.
I realized I am not as patient as I thought I was, something I have mentioned before.
I realized you can't be happy all the time, but you must try!
I realized I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. And that if things are meant to be they will be...
I realized I love blogging! Even if I am not where I want to be yet, I enjoy having a place where I can share my thoughts! And with hard work and time I know it will pay off!
I realized I need to nap at least 30 minutes a day, if not I legit turn into a grumpy child (I used to not be able to nap at all before, but adulthood has gotten to me).
I realized I experience more "wtf" moments in a day now than I ever have before.
I realized adults are just big children, and everyone is trying to figure things out along the way.
As you can see it has been a year filled with lots of learning and realizations!
As for the future?
This year taught me that nothing is ever certain...
but I hope its filled with a lot of happiness, magic, and love!
Valeria Laguna x